Those were the words l had learned before…l said to myself. We learn words here, there, in that time and now randomly. We choose words from life. We own our own vocabularies. We choose the words fit for us.
And when l thought about “missing”, l thought that was one of the word l had learned ‘before.’ Not describing the time l am in. Even it fits for me entirely.
There are things to miss…and things mustn’t be missed. Poorly, l said, those were the words…
l look at some web pages, that shares photos of the places l love. For example, l love Ayvalık. A beautiful place Ayvalık, seaside in Balıkesir. Between Marmara and Egean. Where my mother lived the summers in her high school and university years and where l did. So when l see the photos l feel like being there sometimes, even l don’t know what l feel when l’m there. And when l saw one today, l thought l was so positive and hopeful when l was there inside myself. l thought about those night bazaar stands with the people and their crafts. Was so beautiful to walk around them, looking at some creative and some other traditional and historical things have been came out of the dower chests of the villagers there. Handiwork red canvas in the edges of the white pillow cases.
Now listening to Scent of a Woman (Tango). Eating some wallnuts on my desk. Sometimes l wanted that life in some of my life, living simple but with love. Not crowded the streets. Now what’s the fear?
We met with a friend again and made our daily coffee chat. You know, for us Turkish people, Turkish coffee is a daily routine. Its chitchat is indispensable! And what we say is “a cup of coffee has sake for 40 years.” (l don’t know if l could translate ok.)
So Ayvalık, as usual in Egean, is special with olives,oil and mustic gum. And l had already stored my mustic aromated coffee and lokum (delight). So l love that fresh coffee smell with mustic in Ayvalık days. And a pic. for you from summer days. Which, bubbles on coffee as you see so important to fill all the ground of cup.
After all, few days after 2012, l’m not waiting for anything. Just beleive and hope and wait for good things for me. l’m glad l can be out of ‘me, but us.’
Wish people learn the real meaning of ego, not using in wrong way.
l just feel love, with or without anybody.
Love from Ayvalık, even l’m not there.
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